The past few days i have been contemplating on resigning from Southern Broadcasting Network, which for the past 2 months has been my second home. When i was hired by the company, i truly believed in their advocacy. But the past few weeks, i have been greatly disappointed with the network, for, when i was asked to be part of the research team (which was far from my original designation as Project Development Specialist) i gladly accepted the job for i felt that research was a challenging post --- a post which would give me an opportunity to really use my brains. When i accepted, the ice president for Human Resources and head of operations told me that i will be reporting directly to her and no longer directly with the CEO. I accepted this without question for who am i to question the decision of the Head and VP of Human Resources. Little did i know that they did not formally request for my transfer, but that the CEO was growing more and more disappointed that i was no longer reproting to him. This, i agree was a lapse in judgment on my part. With the growing gap between myself and the CEO, plus the more disturbing fact that i was to be part of a research team that did not have a computer to its name. Imagine doing internet-based research without a computer! What a predicament. Everyday i go to the office waiting for my turn to use any of the available computers, which usually become vacant around 6 or 7 in the evening. The available books for research are old copies of Readers Digest and a big book on home remedies. I tried very hard to request for computers and additional materials, but only got a vauge reply: "make do with what you have". I think the proper term should be "make do with what we DON'T have. And what we DON'T have, we have plenty of, so to speak. This, to me was a sign to bail out. To be given "battle orders" without a weapon is too much, plus the fact that because of their doing, the CEO was beginning to lose faith in my abilities through no fault of my own but through the scheming mechanisms that were already in place long before i started working there. So, i did what i had to do. I resigned my post as part of the research team and resigned my post as Project Development Specialist. This was not done without some long thought. A few weeks back, three people resigned from their posts for similar reasons. I know now why they had to do it. People in that company are scheming, devious and self-absorbed. No matter how much you believe in their advocacy, it is clear that they themselves do not exemplify the very advocacy they profess to adhere to. That is their fault. I know many people will find it hard to understand my actions now, but i am sure that i am not the last in a long line of people growing more and more dismayed with the way things are done in that network. I was hired under the impression that i can do things to the company that would make it great, and i had the same vision, but you cannot make something great if the very people who run it do not believe that their company has potential for greatness. For all their talk of advocacies and community building, they have all been talk, no action. I have no regrets and my action is supported by many of the people in the company. In the two months that i have been with SBN, i have made many friends, i have done my share. I attended seminars sponsored by my sister, i have had calling cards made from my own pocket (though i was made to understand that the company was to provide me with these at the start of my term). It was such a big disappointment.